The True Fact of Life


Since Im stranded at this foreign place & far away from my family especially my mum, I keep on discover the black & white of this real life.You will never experience the beauty of life if you didnt get through all of the obstacles in this life.I never being far from my family before this.Thats why I dint realise the rules of this life.It is not easy like what u thought.It will drown you in its cycle.Before this I always have my mum by my side whenever I have problem.

I hug my mum like this.I miss her hug

If that problem is too personal & I feel I cannot share it with my mum,I still have my best friends that always willing to become my good listener.I never be alone in my life all this while.Every problems that I face in my life, I can manage it wisely because in my mind naturally set,'Dont worry, you still have your family & friends that will always by your side.You can handle all of this.They will always support you'.

                       But now, everything is totally change! Everything was going upside down in my life.Before this, I am very tough person.I always be the most brave one among my friends.I am the one that always give advice to them & convince them that everything will be ok one day later.Just need to put a bit of patience in your life.However, since Im stranded in this foreign place, I feel that my life here is just like 'living dead body'.Its only my body that can still move but my soul & my spirit had return to heaven or hell.I live here without any relatives, friends & the most main thing, without my family.Live in a new environment is not an easy task to be adapt into one's life.It can be consider as culture shock.Thats person will run here and there to search for his or her own direction in life.Thats was what totally happened to me.At first, I thought it just the beginning.After this, it will all over and I will live my life just like normal.However, when things getting worst,you will start to lost hope in your life.Without any friends or family to express your feeling, it will make it worst.You will just keep it in your heart & try to believe me, one day later, it will burst somehow.

                         One thing that you cannot escape from your life is you need to let go of your tears.Letting your tears to fall down your cheeks will make you better for a while & will lessen your burden that was burried in your heart all this while.No one will ever understand your feeling because they dint experience it by their own. If you share with someone new in your life also, they will never understand you.Believe me.They will just sympathy with you.We dont need their sympathy because all we need is just a hope & guide from God so that we can find our own identity in this world. That was what happened to me.Nobody understand me.Whenever my tears fall from my cheeks, I can feel that my heart stop beating.I feel very pain on my chest.Its very hard for me to breath just like normal.In my mind, why dont if my heart just stop beating.Why need to torture me like this? I am also a normal human in this world.I also have my own ability and weaknessess.I also have my own feelings.Sometimes I can handle my problems & sometimes I cannot handle it.My tears drop almost everyday.But, I ever tried to tell myself, 'Dont worry my dear, all will be fine.Its just a beginning in your own life.Everyone in this world also have problem like you.Not you are the only one that have problem in this world.Its just that everyone have different problem.Dont worry.All will be fine.Just be patience for a while my dear'.However,when all your problems come to you & make you suffocate,it will end up in your mind by this,'Oh my god, why dont you just take my life? Why do you need to torture me like this? Dont you love me? Are you willing to see me in this condition everyday? What have I done in the previous life? Did I commit too many sins in the last life? 

                      Once in my life, I think of commit suicide so that I can end my miserable life that is very empty without anyone inside it.Eventhough you tell with the new person in your life,it does not make a difference at all.Suddenly, I remembered about my family especially my mum.My mum hope that I can be a successful person one day later.She hope that I can take care of her just like what she did to raise me since I born into this world.Then, her smile keep on playing in my mind.She is the most beautiful woman in my life.She is very caring.That makes me think,' how could you break her heart by doing all this stupid things?! You must be shame of yourself! If you do this, she will never smile anymore.How could you ruin her happiness?'.That was the main thing that make me think twice whenever I feel very down in my life. She is my source of inspiration.She will always in my heart & mind forever and ever.

                      Thats was what actually happened to me.Its a true story.Now, Im still searching for myself that was lost in my own life.I hope god will have sympathy on me & guide or show me the way to the better one.Lets pray for me so that everything will be ok.
Amen.